Is it jealousy? Perhaps it is; but let's face it, no matter what you do, you can never be like them. And don't start about being yourself; you know your own self is worthless and useless.

Uselessness

Great, just great. I've done absolutely, emptily bloody NOTHING! I should never have involved myself with this; I should have known I am not wanted. Once again, my naivety and curiosity made me a bloody fool! I really should learn how to get out of other's people business. You KNOW, deep within you, that other people are just too polite, or couldn't be bothered to tell you to scram! Stop lying to yourself that you are needed or can do anything, THEY DON'T CARE OR NEED YOU! You can easily be replaced, ignored and forgotten! Next time, for the sake of yourself and others, do the smart thing: Don't sign up or volunteer just because you think you can be helpful or you think it will be fun. Be considerate and let others have fun - SHUT UP & STAY OUT!